Use the heat and intensity of these times to shape yourself into a stronger, truer version of yourself. Dedicated to people who have been yearning to make change... but have been holding back.
That's some crazy quote that I never heard! I have been making the wildest metaphors since I was born (sort of) but this was wonderfully put.
I think your post allowed me to feel what I was compressing. It is truly magnificent how putting ourselves in the empowered position makes other stand stronger.
And yet, I'm so fuck*ng scared!
My personal life is shifting about as much as the global one.
As I'm working on the website that I've been postponing to publish ( and tried to make myself smaller in the process), I feel like you called me out. I'm playing small, because I look around and I'm just so tired of being battered, and I feel I have held onto my ringing
I think I must be now, unapologetically, the loudest bell in town 😊
Thank you, Ankh, for sharing the way you are stretching yourself to meet these times and step into your power. I can so relate to how crazy-scary it feels, so WELL DONE. My guess is that once you have made your next bold move and published your website, a few weeks later, you'll be wondering why you waited so long, and the fear will have reduced to the size of a speck in your rear view mirror. That's been my experience at least.
Once you've published your site, I invite you to share the link in this thread -- let's support each other!
And yes - isn't it magical, how one person putting themselves out there can inspire others? I love that my piece helped you step into greater power - that made my day. I can't wait to see your site!
I find helpful and fascinating the thread of your journey toward your voice, and the inner fears that my attempts at nonconformity unearth. It feels like cheap horror movie gags, skeleton hands ever ready to rise up alive from the earth of countless graves. Maybe there will be no rest, no end to the perils and punishment I’ll face for stepping forward, for allowing my voice to be heard. It’s awful, and I never know how real it might be. And like the zombie metaphor, these punishments might come equally from those I’ve loved and relied on, or from those who’ve been mean to me in life, and from those I’ve never met.
One thing I’ve done most recently is to listen to an audiobook of “There is Nothing Wrong With You: Going Beyond Self Hate” by Cheri Huber. How can this seem so elementary and still speak to exactly what I need to hear, over and over and over? And over. And over.
She says that fear of punishment for one’s own nonconformity is a fear of dying. I think she is right. I experience it that way.
Thank you for standing as a guide, for encouraging your readers, your people, your community, and me, to live bravely and to raise our voices.
Davie Eq- thank you for your beautiful, positively eloquent words. And also for sharing that resource, Cheri Huber. I agree wholeheartedly about the fear of nonconformity feeling like the fear of death. We evolved as a tribal species - so to be banished from the tribe was for most people equivalent to a death sentence.
I am excited to bear witness to your path as you continue to step forward and allow your voice to be heard! With love and respect!
Oh - and let me take a moment for thanking you to take the time to comment. You have no idea how helpful this is, how much of a difference it makes. (Or maybe you do.) When I put myself out there like this - and then feel the vast vacuum of people's busy-ness - well, it's hard! So *thank you*!!!
Kris, thank you for sharing this! I love your voice and your perspective. I gobbled it up - all of it. It will accompany me as i continue to feel myself changing and groping around to find the place to share my gifts. No longer a calling, more like a presencing. I have entered a season of healing. Hugs to you.
Ah, Lisa, thank you so much for your words, they mean the world to me. I love that these words might accompany you for awhile. What an honor! And I would love to hear more about your process, as you feel called to share it. I keep thinking how inspiring it would be, if we could find a medium to share our victories, small and large, as we become ever more truly ourselves.
Yes, I know I write lengthy pieces. They are not meant to be a part of a person's quick inbox cleaning or doom scroll. They are meant to be read through meditatively, reflectively. If the first section of this piece speaks to you, then perhaps read the next section the next day - that sort of thing.
And, I will work on offering shorter posts as well. Thank you for taking the time to comment.
This felt... Magically timed
"Let this darkness be a bell tower
and you the bell. As you ring,
what batters you becomes your strength"
That's some crazy quote that I never heard! I have been making the wildest metaphors since I was born (sort of) but this was wonderfully put.
I think your post allowed me to feel what I was compressing. It is truly magnificent how putting ourselves in the empowered position makes other stand stronger.
And yet, I'm so fuck*ng scared!
My personal life is shifting about as much as the global one.
As I'm working on the website that I've been postponing to publish ( and tried to make myself smaller in the process), I feel like you called me out. I'm playing small, because I look around and I'm just so tired of being battered, and I feel I have held onto my ringing
I think I must be now, unapologetically, the loudest bell in town 😊
Thank you, Ankh, for sharing the way you are stretching yourself to meet these times and step into your power. I can so relate to how crazy-scary it feels, so WELL DONE. My guess is that once you have made your next bold move and published your website, a few weeks later, you'll be wondering why you waited so long, and the fear will have reduced to the size of a speck in your rear view mirror. That's been my experience at least.
Once you've published your site, I invite you to share the link in this thread -- let's support each other!
And yes - isn't it magical, how one person putting themselves out there can inspire others? I love that my piece helped you step into greater power - that made my day. I can't wait to see your site!
Thank you, Kris.
I find helpful and fascinating the thread of your journey toward your voice, and the inner fears that my attempts at nonconformity unearth. It feels like cheap horror movie gags, skeleton hands ever ready to rise up alive from the earth of countless graves. Maybe there will be no rest, no end to the perils and punishment I’ll face for stepping forward, for allowing my voice to be heard. It’s awful, and I never know how real it might be. And like the zombie metaphor, these punishments might come equally from those I’ve loved and relied on, or from those who’ve been mean to me in life, and from those I’ve never met.
One thing I’ve done most recently is to listen to an audiobook of “There is Nothing Wrong With You: Going Beyond Self Hate” by Cheri Huber. How can this seem so elementary and still speak to exactly what I need to hear, over and over and over? And over. And over.
She says that fear of punishment for one’s own nonconformity is a fear of dying. I think she is right. I experience it that way.
Thank you for standing as a guide, for encouraging your readers, your people, your community, and me, to live bravely and to raise our voices.
Davie Eq- thank you for your beautiful, positively eloquent words. And also for sharing that resource, Cheri Huber. I agree wholeheartedly about the fear of nonconformity feeling like the fear of death. We evolved as a tribal species - so to be banished from the tribe was for most people equivalent to a death sentence.
I am excited to bear witness to your path as you continue to step forward and allow your voice to be heard! With love and respect!
Oh - and let me take a moment for thanking you to take the time to comment. You have no idea how helpful this is, how much of a difference it makes. (Or maybe you do.) When I put myself out there like this - and then feel the vast vacuum of people's busy-ness - well, it's hard! So *thank you*!!!
You are so very welcome. I’m grateful for your work, your example, your partnership in the whole of it all.
Kris, thank you for sharing this! I love your voice and your perspective. I gobbled it up - all of it. It will accompany me as i continue to feel myself changing and groping around to find the place to share my gifts. No longer a calling, more like a presencing. I have entered a season of healing. Hugs to you.
Ah, Lisa, thank you so much for your words, they mean the world to me. I love that these words might accompany you for awhile. What an honor! And I would love to hear more about your process, as you feel called to share it. I keep thinking how inspiring it would be, if we could find a medium to share our victories, small and large, as we become ever more truly ourselves.
Way too long given how much email I get and already don’t read. Maybe I’ll get back to it.
Well, I guess any comment is still engagement!
Yes, I know I write lengthy pieces. They are not meant to be a part of a person's quick inbox cleaning or doom scroll. They are meant to be read through meditatively, reflectively. If the first section of this piece speaks to you, then perhaps read the next section the next day - that sort of thing.
And, I will work on offering shorter posts as well. Thank you for taking the time to comment.